stress, stress and more unnecessary stress...

Sorry it's been so long since I've put something on here- no excuses! Well those of you who know me well know that for whatever crazy reason, I HATE having people over my house! I don't mind having friends just over, but when I am "hosting" something, I make myself sick over it!!! Even things as relaxed as Bunko- I just worry and make myself crazy! Now you know that I totally didn't grow up this way, we always had people over our house, for everything and anything! I don't know where it came from, but it is definitely here! I worry over silly things, like if there is enough of everything, if everyone likes the food, if I have enough of a selection of drinks, if the music is too loud or too soft, if they like the music, if they are bored, if if if!!! I honestly make myself SICK! I have to get over this, it is absurd!!! Everyone has phobias of some sort or another, and this is mine! WEll to my point of this blog...Eric's 1 year birthday is coming up! I know I would love to have a small little party for him, but I am making myself crazy over it! I am nuts- I know already! I do want to have something though, just so we have pictures and it will be fun for him. I told my friend Jen that I am going to start having little get togethers every now and agian, just to break myself in, so I get over this fear! But it doesn't help me for this party! Plus I don't know a whole lot of people here, well I know them but not enough to invite them to a 'fun' 1st birthday party! I think that all of you who I do know really well should make a trip to Arizona next month and then I will feel a lot better! Doesn't that sound good???

Jen wen to a birthday party last last weekend, and this a balloon from there. John thought I was buying him Happy Birthday balloons already! NO! Anyway, he loves it, these pictures are of him playing with it.